Sunday, 18 October 2015

My Slimming World Journey

Hello My Lovelies,

I know I have posted in the past about my weight loss story but I wanted to post a video about it too :)

Slimming world has really changed my life for the better! If you have any questions or want any advice or info then comment or message me on any social media platform.

Please like and subscribe if you enjoy the video :)


BethanyLouise xx

Sunday, 11 October 2015

Anxiety And Why I have been Away

Hi Everyone,

Tonights blog post is a very difficult one for me to write. I never really expected to not blog for weeks and not be able to film for YouTube (all my uploads over the past few week have been pre - recorded).

I want to start from the beginning so you can understand fully what I have been going through. I started a new job 3 weeks ago tomorrow and it was a very hard thing for me to do. I knew I would be nervous but I didn't realise I would panic in a lot of situations to do with meeting people and that I would cry in the car on my way to my first day, multiple times. I thought it was normal to panic in such a way for the first day, so I carried on and didn't tell anyone how I felt.

As I got into my 3rd day these feelings didn't pass. Now I am not saying that this is the first time I have experienced these feelings. I have them a lot. I will list below all the situations that make me feel the way I do:

  • Going out alone.
  • Going to Pubs/Cafes/nightclubs where there are a lot of people.
  • Ringing people I don't know on a telephone.
  • Driving to places I don't know.
  • Getting on public transport.
  • Going shopping or to the supermarket
Basically anywhere that involves people or new things.

The feelings I am talking about start with an itchy/scratchy throat that then turns into I can't breath. When I can't breath I get knots in my stomach making me feel sick and tense and my hands start to feel numb. As this is happening I start to cry. The final stage of this is the room feels like it is closing in and I have to run outside or as far away as I possibly can from the situation. For example if I am asked to ring someone I normally just put that job to the bottom of the pile and say "Oh I didn't get round to doing that today".

This is not normal. I only found this out by speaking to family (they noticed that I was a lot more uptight and stressed) and then going to the doctor. I have never been so scared to speak to someone about these things as I have when I walked into the doctors surgery. It turns out I didn't need to be. The lady was lovely and gave me a number to call to get some counselling. She then went on  to tell my what I am suffering is Anxiety and Anxiety/Panic Attacks, which means I am mentally ill. To be honest I was heartbroken to hear that I wasn't "Normal" and that there was something wrong in my head. But it does make sense.... and I can completely understand what it is that makes me feel scared but at this time I can't say it out loud (sorry).

What I am trying to explain to everyone is I haven't had the confidence or the energy (as these attacks are draining) to write posts or film videos. I have been so anxious about filming/writing that its all become too much and I have ended up in a state. In the end I felt the best thing to do was take a step back and try with little baby steps to get back to what I used to be. I will film this week I am determined to so there should be an upload on my channel for next week. And I will write a blog post (though it will have to be friday evening now I work full time). 

Please please please bare with me through this difficult time. I am really trying but it doesn't happen overnight.

If any of you suffer out there with this problem please comment and let me know your tips/advice on how to control this.

Thank you my lovelies!

BethanyLouise xx

Sunday, 4 October 2015

My September Favourites

Hi Everyone,

Please check out My September Favourites and let me know what you have been loving this month!

I will be posting a blog post in the coming week to explain why I have been away for a while!


BethanyLouise xx